How Could I Ever Close My Eyes? ('80)

Why do you take away the codes we were so lucky to find?
Why do you ignore the reasons we had in mind?
It will turn out to be so pointless when you come to see
Behind all bill and coo's there is only you and me

You deny everything we used to feel happy about
What Can I do? Yes, I can always shout
Can you hear me through the stars around you?
The distance doesn't matter, if it takes me to you

Funny how this weather's reflecting
Mirrors keep telling me I'm aching
You gave me your answer, now you don't seem to know
Well I didn't think it would hurt me so

I never said it would be easy
And our road will be long and rough
But there are so many little things I can easily remember
These precious gifts, aren't they enough?

Meanwhile I stick to wandering every single day
Facing scenes that could have happened yesterday
Tomorow will even last longer than today
You like the running, but you never get away

Funny how this weather's reflecting
Mirrors keep telling me I'm aching
You gave me your answer, now you don't seem to know
Well I didn't think it would hurt me so

Imagine me at one of those countless nights
Trying to ease my worried mind
But how could I ever close my eyes?
_______________

Robert Leon,
Amsterdam - 30 june 1980

Music: Rogi Wieg

When There Is No Door ('80)

Don’t ever leave me
And don’t make me cry
Don’t give me nothing
You know, we still need to try

How can I find words
Nobody spoke before
How can I walk out of you
When there is no door

I hate to see myself depending
On someone who doesn’t really care for me
So, it’s always a gamble
Stick around and we’ll see

Don’t keep me waiting
Just to proof you don’t care
I don’t want to miss you
You know, it is so hard to bear

How can I find words
Nobody spoke before
How can I walk out of you
When there is no door

I hate to see myself leaning
On someone who doesn’t really care for me
Words are fading so simply
Work it out and fight with me

____________________

Robert Leon,
Amsterdam - 20 september 1980

Music: Rogi Wieg & Robert Leon

Koren gescheiden van het kaf ('81)

De gedachte die is overgebleven
Is er een van veel verdriet
De pijn is langzaam verdwenen
Maar jij ziet het niet

Ik ben benieuwd wat jij zou zeggen
Als ik voor jouw deur zou staan
Zouden we kunnen praten?
Elkaar verstaan?

Elkaar verstaan
Elkaar verstaan
Elkaar verstaan
Elkaar verstaan
Na maanden van leegte
Elkaar weer verstaan?

Het gevoel jou niet te missen
Is zo nieuw voor mij
Is het wel waar?
We hebben elkander opgesloten
In elkaar

Toen jij zo plotseling bent weggelopen
Leefde ik op die bedrieglijke schijn
Dat jij wel terug moest komen
God, het deed zo’n pijn

Het deed zo’n pijn
Het deed zo’n pijn
Het deed zo’n pijn
Het deed zo’n pijn
Jou zo kwijt te raken
Het deed zo ontzettend pijn

In elkaar
In elkaar
In elkaar
In elkaar
Elkander opgesloten
Ongewild maar in elkaar

Nu alle wegen zijn afgesloten
En drempels kennelijk te hoog
Zal de herinnering blijven voortleven
Als een eindeloze monoloog

We hoeven elkaar niet meer te ontlopen
De spanning is er echt wel van af
Verder gaan en toch van je houden
‘Koren gescheiden van het kaf’

Koren gescheiden van het kaf
Koren gescheiden van het kaf
Koren gescheiden van het kaf
Koren gescheiden van het kaf

Verder gaan en toch van je houden
Koren gescheiden van het kaf

______________________

Robert Leon,
Amsterdam, 10/11 april 1981

Op muziek van: ‘Let it Be’ - Paul McCartney
Geschreven voor: ‘Cabaret Zonder Gekheid’ – Lustrumviering HL Zuid 1981
Gespeeld door: Velja Mijatovic
Gezongen door: Lonneke van Eden & Jetty Verhoog

Favourite Movies

Absence Of Malice (Paul Newman, Sally Field)
All The President’s men (Robert Redford, Dustin Hoffman)
American Gigolo (Richard Gere, Lauren Hutton)
Apocalypse Now (Martin Sheen, Marlon Brando)
An Officer And A Gentleman (Richard Gere, Debra Winger)
Annie Hall (Woody Allen, Diane Keaton)
And Justice For All (Al Pacino, Jack Warden)
Assasination Of Richard Nixon, The (Sean Penn, Naomi Watts)
Assignment, The (Aidan Quinn, Donald Sutherland)
Avenging Angelo (Sylvester Stallone, Madeleine Stowe)

Badlands (Martin Sheen, Sissy Spacek)
Basic (John Travolta, Samuel L. Jackson)
Before Sunrise (Ethan Hawke & Julie Delpie)
Before Sunset (Ethan Hawke & Julie Delpie)
Behind Enemy Lines (Gene Hackman, Owen Wilson)
Beyond Borders (Angelina Jolie, Clive Owen)
Bestseller (James Woods, Brain Dennehy)
Birthday Girl (Nicole Kidman, Ben Chaplin)
Blind Horizon (Val Kilmer, Neve Campbell)
Blood Work (Clint Eastwood, Jeff Daniels)
Blow Out (John Travolta, Nancy Allen)
Blowup (Vanessa Redgrave, David Hemmings)
Body Heat (William Hurt, Kathleen Turner, Ted Danson)
Boiling Point (Wesley Snipes, Dennis Hopper)
Bourne Identity, The (Matt Damon, )
Bourne Supremacy, The (Matt Damon, Joan Allen)
Boys From Brazil, The (Laurence Olivier, Gregory Peck)
Breakfast Club, The (Judd Nelson, Molly Ringwald)
Broken Arrow (John Travolta, Christian Slater)
Bridges Of Madison County, The (Clint Eastwood, Meryl Streep)
Bullit (Steve McQueen, Robert Vaughn)

Carnal Knowledge (Jack Nicholson, Sam Garfunkel, Ann-Margret)
Catch Me If You Can (Leonardo Di Caprio, Tom Hanks)
Changing Lanes (Ben Affleck, Samuel L. Jackson)
Chinatown (Jack Nicholson, Faye Duneway, John Huston)
Citizen X (Donald Sutherland, Stephen Rea, Max van Sydow)
Clear and Present Danger (Harrison Ford, William Dafoe, Anne Archer)
Client, The (Tommy Lee Jones, Susan Sarandon)
Collateral (Tom Cruise, Jamie Foxx)
Color of Money, The (Paul Newman, Tom Cruise)
Confessions of a Dangerous Mind (Sam Rockwell, Rutger Hauer)
Confidence (James Burns, Rachel Weisz, Dustin Hoffman)
Control (Ray Loitta, William Dafoe, Stephen Rea)
Conversation, The (Gene Hackman, Frederic Forrest)

Day Of The Jackal, The (Edward Fox)
Dead Zone, The (Christoffer Walken)
Deerhunter, The (Robert de Niro, Meryl Streep, Christopher Walken)
Deliverance (Jon Voight, Burt Reynolds)
Devil's Advocte, The (Al Pacino. Keanu Reeves)
Devil's Own, The (Harrison Ford, Brad Pitt)
Die Hard (Bruce Willis, Alexander Gudunov, William Atherton)
Die Hard 2 (Bruce Willis, William Atherton)
Die Hard With A Vengeance (Bruce Willis, Samuel L. Jackson, Jeremy Irons)
Domestic Disturbance (John Travolta, Vince Vaughn)
Domino Principle, The (Gene Hackman, Candice Bergen)
Double Jeopardy (Tommy Lee Jones, Ashley Judd)
Dr. Strangelove or ..... (Peter Sellers, George C. Scott)
Drop Zone (Wesley Snipes, Gary Busey)
Driver, The (Ryan O' Neal, Bruce Dern)
Duel (Dennis Weaver)

Emmet's Mark (Gabriel Byrne, Scott Wolf)

Fabulous Baker Boys, The (Jeff & Beau Bridges, Michelle Pfeiffer)
Face/Off (John Travolta, Nicholas Cage)
Family Man, The (Nicholas Cage, Tea Leoni)
Falling Down (Michael Douglas, Robert Duvall)
Fearless (Jeff Bridges, Isabelle Rossellini)
Fever Pitch (Colin Firth)
Few Good Man, A (Jack Nicholson, Tom Cruise)
Final Analysis (Richard Gere, Kim Basinger, Uma Thurman)
Firm, The (Tom Cruise, Gene Hackman)
Fled (Laurence Fishburn, Stephen Baldwin)
For The Love Of The Game (Kevin Costner, Kelly Preston)
Frances (Jessica Lange, Sam Shepherd)
Frankie & Johnny (Al Pacino, Michelle Pfeiffer)
Frantic (Harrison Ford)
Fugitive, The (Harrison Ford, Tommy Lee Jones)
F/X2 (Bryan Brown, Brain Dennehy)

Game, The (Michael Douglas, Sean Penn, Deboraah Unger)
Get Carter (Sylvester Stallone, Michael Caine)
Ghosts Of Mississippi (James Woods, Alec Baldwin)
Ginostra (Harvey Kietel, Andie MacDowell)
Glengarry Glen Ross (Al Pacino, Jack Lemmon)
Godfather I, The (Al Pacino, Marlon Brando, Robert Duvall)
Godfather II, The (Al Pacino, Robert de Niro, Robert Duvall)
Good Girl, The (Jeniffer Aniston, Jake Gyllenhaal)
Goodbye Girl, The (Richard Dreyfuss, Marsha Mason)
Gorky Park (William Hurt, Joanna Pacula)
Great Santini, The (Robert Duvall)
Gridlock'd (Tupac Shakur, Thandi Newton, Tim Roth)
Groundhog Day (Bill Murray, Richard Dreyfuss)

Hard Ball (Keanu Reeves, Diane Lane)
Heartbreak Kid, The (Charles Grodin, Cibyll Shepherd)
Hero (Dustin Hoffman, Geena Davis, Andy Garcia)
Heroes (Henri Winkler, Harrison Ford)
High Crimes (Ashley Judd, Morgan Freeman)
Honeymoon In Vegas (Nicholas Cage, James Caan, Sarah Jessica Parker)
House Of Sand And Fog (Jennifer Connolly, Ben Kingsley)
Hustler, The (Paul Newman, George C. Scott)

I Inside, The (Ryan Philippe, Stephen Rea)
In The Heat Of The Night (Rod Steiger, Sidney Poitier)
In The Name Of The Father (Daniel Day-Lewis, Emma Thompson)
Internal Affairs (Richard Gere, Andy Garcia)

Jagged Edge (Jeff Bridges, Glenn Close)
Jaws (Roy Scheider, Richard Dreyfuss, Robert Shaw)
Juror, The (Demi Moore, Alec Baldwin)
Just Cause (Laurence Fishburn, Sean Connery)

King Of Comedy, The (Robert de Niro)
Kiss The Girls (Ashley Judd, Morgan Freeman)

Last Castle, The (Robert Redford, ...)
Leaving Las Vegas (Nicholas Cage, Elisabeth Shue)
Lenny (Dustin Hoffman)
Life Or Something Like It (Angelina Jolie, Edward Burns)
Long Kiss Goodnight, The (Geena Davis, Samuel L. Jackson)
Lord Of War (Nicholas Cage, Ethan Hawke)

Mad City (John Travolta, Dustin Hoffman)
Majestic, The (Jim Carrey, Laurie Holden)
Man From Elysian Fields, The (Andy Garcia, Mick Jagger)
Man On Fire (Denzel Washington, Dakota Fanning)
Manchurian Candidate, The (Denzel Washington, Meryl Streep)
Marathon Man (Dustin Hoffman, Laurence Olivier)
Matchstick Men (Nicholas Cage, Alison Lohman)
Melinda and Melinda (Radha Mitchell, Will Ferrell)
Men Of Honor (Robert de Niro, Cuba Gooding)
Mexican, The (Brad Pitt, Julie Roberts)
Miller's Crossing (Gabriel Byrne, Albert Finney)
Million Dollar Baby (Clint Eastwood, Hilary Schwank)
Mission Impossible (Tom Cruise, Jon Voight)
Mississippi Burning (Gene Hackman, William Dafoe)
Mothman Prophecies, The (Richard Gere, Laura Linney)
Mozart And The Whale (Josh Harnett, Radha Mitchell)
Murder At 1600 (Wesley Snipes, Diane Lane)
Murder In The First (Kevin Bacon, Christian Slater)
Music Box (Jessica Lange, Armin Mueller-Stahl)
My Name Is Bill W. (James Woods, Jobeth Williams)

Natural, The (Robert Redford, Glenn Close)
Network (Peter Finch, Faye Duneway)
No Looking Back (Edward Burns, Lauren Holly)

One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest (Jack Nicholson)
Once Upon A Time in America (Robert de Niro, James Woods)
Out Of Time (Denzel Washington, Eva Mendes)
Owning Mahony (Philip Seymour Hoffman, John Hurt)

Patriot Games (Harrison Ford, Sean Bean, Anne Archer)
Paycheck (Ben Affleck, Uma Thurman)
Peacemaker, The (Nicole Kidman, George Clooney)
Pelican Brief, The (Julia Roberts, Denzel Washington)
Perfect World, A (Kevin Costner, Clint Eastwood)
Play It Again, Sam (Woody Allen, Diane Keaton)
Point Of No Return (Bridget Fonda, Gabriel Byrne)
Presumed Innocent (Harrison Ford, Brian Dennehy)
Primal Fear (Richard Gere, Edward Norton)

Quiet American, The (Michael Caine, Brendan Fraser)

Rain Men (Dustin Hoffman, Tom Cruise)
Raging Bull (Robert de Niro, Joe Pesci)
Random Hearts (Harrison Ford, Kristin Scott Thomas)
Red Dragon (Ralph Fiennes, Anthony Hopkins, Edward Horton)
Replacement Killers, The (Mira Sorvino, Yun-Fat Chow)
Return To Sender (Aidan Quinn, Kelly Preston, Connie Nielsen)
Road To Perdition (Tom Hanks, Paul Newman)
Rock Star (Mark Wahlberg, Jennifer Aniston)
Runaway Jury (John Cusack, Gene Hackman, Dustin Hoffman)

Scarface (Al Pacino)
Scent Of A Woman (Al Pacino, )
Schindler’s List (Liam Neesan, Ben Kingsley)
Score, The (Robert de Niro, Edward Norton)
Serendipity (John Cusack, Katin Beckinsale)
Se7en (Brad Pitt, Gwyneth Palthrow, Morgan Freeman)
Shawshank Redemption (Tim Robbins, Morgan Freeman)
She's The One (Edward Burns, Cameron Diaz, Jennifer Aniston)
Sidewalks Of New York (Edward Burns, Heather Graham)
Spy Game (Robert Redford, Brad Pitt)
Sleepers (Robert de Niro, Kevin Bacon, Brad Pitt, Dustin Hoffman)
Sliding Doors – Gwyneth Paltrow, John Hannah
Smilla's Sense Of Snow (Julia Ormond, Gabriel Byrne)
Specialist, The (Sylvester Stallone, Sharon Stone)
Straw Dogs (Dustin Hoffman)
Suzanne's Diary For Nicholas (Christina Applegate, Johnathan Schaech)
Sweet November (Charlize Theron, Keanu Reeves)
Swimming Pool (Charlotte Rampling, Ludivine Sagnier)

Take The Money And Run (Woody Allen)
Taking Lives (Angelina Jolie, Ethan Hawke)
Taxi Driver (Al Pacino)
Terminal Velocity (Charlie Sheen, Nastassia Kinski)
Terms Of Endearment (Debra Winger, Jack Nicholson)
Thomas Crown Affair, The (Steve McQueen, Faye Duneway)
Three Days Of The Condor (Robert Redford, Faye Duneway)
Tin Cup (Kevin Costner, Rene Russo)
Trading Places (Eddie Murphy, Dan Ackroyd)
Trial By Jury (Joanne Whalley, Gabriel Byrne, Armand Assante)
Truth About Charlie, The (Mark Wahlberg, Thandi Newton)
Twelve Monkeys (Bruce Willes, Madeleine Stowe, Brad Pitt)

U Turn (Sean Penn, Jennifer Lopez, Nick Nolte)
U.S. Marshalls (Tommy Lee Jones, Wesley Snipes)
Under Fire (Nick Nolte, Ed Harris)
Upside Of Anger, The (Joan Allen, Kevin Costner)
Usual Suspects, The (Gabriel Byrne, Kevin Spacey)

Vanishing, The (Jeff Bridges, Kiefer Sutherland)
Verdict, The (Paul Newman, Charlotte Rampling)

Walk In The Clouds, A (Keanu Reeves, Aitana Sánchez-Gijón)
Wallstreet (Michael Douglas)
We Don't Live Here Anymore (Naomi Watts, Laura Dern)
What About Bob? (Bill Murray, Richard Dreyfuss)
When A Man Loves a Woman (Andy Garcia, Meg Ryan)
When Harry Met Sally (Billy Crystal, Meg Ryan)
When Saturday Comes (Sean Bean, Pete Postlethwaite)
White Men Can't Jump (Wesley Snipes, Woody Harrelson)
White Oleander (Michelle Pfeiffer, Alison Lohman)
Witness (Harrison Ford, Kelly McGillis)
Whose Life Is It Anyway (Richard Dreyfuss, John Cassevetes)
Why Would I Lie (Treat Williams)
Wonderland (Val Kilmer,..)

Yakuza, The (Robert Mitchum, Brain Keith)

TOP 25
01. Once Upon A Time In America
02. Godfather II
03. Godfather I
04. The Devil's Advocate
05. Body Heat
06. Shawshank Redemption
07. Trading Places
08. The Game
09. Scarface
10. Man On Fire
11. Taxi Driver
12. Falling Down
13. And Justice For All
14. Internal Affairs
15. Spy Game
16. When A Man Loves A Woman
17. The Deerhunter
18. Before Sunrise
19. Play It Again, Sam
20. The King Of Comedy
21. U Turn
22. The Great Santini
23. Changing Lanes
24. Serendipity
25. Sliding Doors

Airtime 1974 - 2006

Total number of flights: 126

Per year
30 - 2002
22 - 2001
18 - 2003
12 - 2000
10 - 1999
09 - 2005
06 - 2006
05 - 1993
04 - 1976
02 - 2004, 1994, 1992, 1990, 1974

Countries
42 - Netherlands
17 - England
14 - Thailand
05 - USA
04 - Switzerland
02 - France, Italy
01 - Germany, Greece, Ireland, Portugal, Spain

Cities/Airports:
42 - Amsterdam
25 - Bangkok
17 - London
06 - Khon Kaen
04 - Atlanta, Philadelphia, Washington DC
03 - Chiang Mai, Geneve
02 - Boston, Milan, New York
01 - Detroit, Dublin, Hamburg, Kos, Lissabon, Lugano, Mallorca, Newark, Nice, Paris, Ubon Ratchatani

Business versus Leisure:
56 (44,4%) vs. 70 (55,6%)

Flights inside countries:
21 - Thailand
14 - USA

Number of trips: 42
Number of flights: 126
Flights per trip: 3,0

Concerts/Gigs seen

8: Paul McCartney 6: Rod Stewart
5: Rolling Stones
4: Dire Straits & Billy Joel
3: Randy Newman
2: Paul Weller, Van Morrisson, Sting, Supertramp, Roxy Music, Paul Simon & Suzanne Vega
1: Bruce Springsteen, The Police, Average White band, Elvis Costello & the Attractions, J. Geils Band, Level 42, Simon & Garfunkel, Peter Tosh, James Taylor, Janis Ian, Golden Earring, Earth, Wind & Fire, Nick Lowe, Dave Edmunds, The Jam, Nils Lofgren, Brian Wilson, Todd Rundgren, Joe Jackson, Ray Davies, John Fogerty, Gilbert O'Sullivan ....